So, it has been a while and my regular readers might be wondering what is going on with my one-woman show. Well, I went to Florence, Italy and Paris, France and Toulouse, France just recently. My younger sister got married in Toulouse. :)
Now I just have to say how tough it is to work on a project by yourself without much support or what feels like without a team. Plus on a topic that is so personal and to stay with it and aware of it at all times. I think it has taken a toll on me.
My piece is not just a vanity project. And I need to remind myself of that. But it is also a living breathing piece of theatre. I live the experience as I write and carve it for performance. So, the lack of distance from the subject matter (while it is necessary and it feeds the piece), it also keeps me in it, consistently. Unlike when people write about what happened to them in the past, I am writing about what is happening now and how I am struggling with it. So, I can say the story is about overcoming, but it is tough. I need to give myself that. So, yes I need to take a moment to cry a river. And give myself a pat on the back for doing what I am doing. It is my journey, but I am sharing for the benefit of others like me.
Solutions. I don't know what they are. How does one get over this? I don't know. I try, certainly. And certainly am mostly unsuccessful. Its like one step forward and two steps backwards. How does one move forward?
Writing a solo show is tough. Most of the time it's just you or one other person in the room, writing and rehearsing...and of course, come performance time: it's just you.
ReplyDeleteIt can be overwhelming. There can be doubt. There can be fear. All sorts of things.
But, that's a part of the process. You keep moving forward, down the river, as it were. Towards a time and a place where you can put it up in front of a few more people, and then more people, and so on and so on.
You'll gain confidence by doing it, by putting nose to the grindstone, by working those moments, that's the solution. Acknowledging the trouble, taking a moment to do what you need to do (cry, breath, yell, scream) and then get back on the boat, and down the river.
love the blog keep it up! ill be following hope you will do the same
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